Sunday, May 31, 2009
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Seriously mother nature is not being kind this week, I am sick and tired of her crying fit! I want to see some sunshine, I want to take my kid to the fair that's in town and today is the last day! The fair is no fun in the rain! Mother nature needs to get some prozac or zoloft or some other mood swing adjuster and just get over whatever is bugging her! As a mother I can understand having weepy days, I can understand being in the downy dumps and just not wanting to smile cause it feels like there really isn't much to smile about. The kids don't listen, the husband doesn't listen, the animals don't listen...the only person who cares about mom is mom and no one wants to hear her opinion because she needs to cook their dinner or fix them a hearty breakfast or do some other mundane chore....see mother nature, I TOTALLY get it! I also get that mom can't stay in the gloomy-woomies for any length of time, it's just not allowed! If mom ain't happy, ain't nobody happy so Please Mother Nature, just get over it, pick up the pieces, dry those eyes and give us some sunshine so we ALL can have a better day!
Friday, May 29, 2009
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Sweet Mama Jones has given me an award...I am honored!!!!!! I don't win much of anything, maybe a buck or two on an occassional scratch ticket if I dare buy one, so this award is nice and unexpected. Apparently Mama Jones likes my blog, which I think is pretty awesome, you should check out her blog as she's a pretty down to earth gal and I would like to think that if we lived in the same town we might even be friends. So to Mama Jones...a hearty THANK YOU for my wonderful award...and now I will pass it forward to 7 more blogs that I like to read.
1) Matt Logelin's Blog
Matt is an inspiration to me. He lost his wife 27 hours after his baby girl was born. He is now a single father raising their daughter, which he blogs about in a down to earth and truthful manner.
2) Not So Perfect Housewife
Britainy is a mom to 2, a crafter and a wonderful friend!
3) Postcards From Insanity
This lady has a sense of humor that is amazing! Her blog never lets me down...when I need a good laugh I go straight to her blog!
4) My New Normal
This lady has a little girl who was born with a rare genetic defect. She also has a foster child she is hoping to adopt. Her blog will make you laugh and cry all in the same day.
5) Pregnant With Cancer
Talk about overcoming the near impossible...This lady is AMAZING and her daughter is a miracle! Given a very short time to live if she didn't go through treatment for cancer but pregnant she chose to fight for her life and the life of her unborn child. Today she is cancer free and has a beautiful healthy baby girl!
6) The Adventures Of Mr. Busypants
This blog is all about a mom and her adventures with her autistic son Mr. Busypants. It's really an amazing read!
7) Womb At The Insane
A funny lady who has a lot of great, helpful and honest posts.
Now my son is screaming at me that he's starving (don't know how that's possible since he just ate dinner an hour ago, maybe that hour long bath took more energy than I thought possible) My husband is yelling that I need to get off this computer and feed the starving child (why he can't get the kid a snack is beyond me but then again he is a helpless male so there ya go) so bottom line...I'm off for now :)
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
It started 2 years ago when Orion and I signed up for our first Adult/Youth bowling league. Look how little he was then....Orion was just starting to bowl 1 handed and he wanted some practice so that when he got to his regular kids league he would be pretty good at it. See when you're a mini-mite you can bowl 2 handed, but once you become a Junior you have to bowl 1 handed. That year was going to be his last year as a mini-mite so he wanted to be able to bowl the entire season 1 handed and not struggle and since you have to bowl 1 handed in the Adult/Youth league I thought it would be good practice and a nice bonding experience for us as well.
That year we named our team Double Trouble and we were the 1st place team at the end of the summer.
Last year we bowled together again with the same team name, Orion found some socks that said Double Trouble on them...they were actually Spiderman socks from that movie where spiderman gets the alter ego and that black thing attaches to him (can you tell I don't really follow Spiderman movies lol) Anyway Orion bought them and wore them every bowling night. It was a lot of fun and every Wednesday night all summer long was just us having fun together!
Tonight was our first night for this summer league. Orion and I had a great time and we both bowled really well! It was really fun to be back on his team bowling with him and not being the coach...I don't mind being the coach, but I like being his teammate more I think :) And yes...incase you were wondering, he wore his Double Trouble socks. We also received t-shirts at the end of the season last year that had the name of the place we bowl on the front of them, we're going to take them and have our team name put on the back so that we will have team shirts to wear every Wednesday night.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
First let me say that your customer service needs a serious amount of help! We switched to FIOS service through your company over a year ago and at that time you started billing us twice monthly for your Internet Security Suite. I called every month for 3 months in a row to get the second charge credited to my account. Every month I was appologized to and told that the second charge would not show up again, yet there it was staring me in the face every month. After 3 months you FINALLY removed it and I thought you had your stuff together.
Then I asked for some additional web space so I could post photos on the blog I had through you. The first month there were 2 charges, I called explained that maybe it was my dumb blonde issue pushing the button twice but could you please remove the second 50 MB of storage space and the additional charge. I was told no problem, but again, just like with the security suite it took me 3 months of calling to get you to understand I simply did not want both of those and wanted the scond one removed. Then in February of this year I decided to start a nice free Blogger Blog and skip your charges altogether. Thought maybe I would save myself a few dollars every month....unfortunately (as my Grammy used to say) THOUGHT SHIT HIS BRITCHES, or at least he thought he did! After assuring me that the charge would be removed, after assuring me that the additional webspace would be removed you not only decided to continue giving me the webspace but you decided to once again start charging me twice every month for it!! ITS BEEN 3 MONTHS SINCE I ASKED YOU TO REMOVE IT!! I have been bounced around from person to person, told that I can only remove it online (which is crap because if you go to remove it online you only have the option to add more space, not remove it) I was told by another girl that someone from tech support would be able to walk me through the process, but the lady in tech support told me there was nothing she could do and that customer service was the only people who could remove this from my account, I was sent back to customer service and FINALLY got a nice gentleman who assures me that the charges will be credited to my account and that the webspace will be removed and not charged again.......I don't think I'll hold my breath, history has shown me that I will probably be calling again next month fully ticked off and ready to tear some poor helpless sap a new one because your customer service department leaves a lot to be desired!
One very disgruntled customer in need of some descent service!
Monday, May 25, 2009
BUT are the only heroes the people who have fought in wars? Are hereos the police and firefighters and ambulance workers? Are our doctors heroes? What truly makes a hero?? In my opinion, a hero is someone we can look up to, someone who has made an impression on our lives. A hero is someone who made a major impact on your life....so tell me, who's your hero??
I have had the opportunity in my 38 years to meet a few people whom I believe are worthy of the title "HERO"
First and foremost, my big brother Hank! He was my first hero, the first persom to make an impression on me, the first person I could honestly say I looked up to and admired! I stood in awe of him and to this day he holds the highest honor in my heart. He was the lodestone of our house growing up, the level head, the one who I felt could make everything ok. Yes he tossed my dolls off the front porch in the rain and made me cry, but he was my big brother! He could keep the mean boys away, he could chase away the nightmares, he was the safety when mother was on a rampage. He became a Marine, the strongest of soldiers...he looked even more awesome in a uniform and even I turned my head to look as he walked by. My big brother...to this day I believe him capable of anything!
Second, my social worker Karen Wheatley. Karen took us away from teh abuse and put us into foster care. She found homes for me and my siblings, she took care of me for 7 years until I graduated high school. She made sure I was ok, she helped me get into the college of my choice and helped me get a scholarship so I could go there. She checked in on me after I went off to college and I am sure she didn't have to. She made a major change in my life, made a huge impact by saving me from the nightmare that was my life.
Third is my son. He's only 8 but he's my little hero. He has to battle ADHD every single day of his life, he faces challenges on a daily basis, he faces them and overcomes them. He has had a rough go of it socially, but maintains the optimism that he has friends and that true friends are more important than lots of friends. He teaches me to smile when I don't feel like it and find the happiness in the gloom.
So....those are a few of my heroes...who's yours??
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
I am a Virtual Call Center worker. I sit down here at my computer and log into the virtual call center where I can chat with fellow agents and get questions about the products answered. When I log into the virtual call center my phone here at my house is then connected to their call router and the calls are forwarded to me here at home. When a call is routed to me a script will pop on my computer screen and my phone will ring, I simply answer the phone and read what's in front of my face. I fill in the blanks for the orders and voila, customer gets what they saw on the TV commercial or heard on the radio and I get paid. I'm paid by the talk time minute, not by the number of hours I sit here, so on slow or short nights I might make $15 or $20 but on a really busy night I can make $50 or $60. I also get bonus' for selling additional products like a magazine trial or a club trial. Some of the products give me a bonus just for making the sale....we do have some products that are difficult to sell so they reward us for doing that. I make my own schedule and shifts are available 24/7/365. Every Thursday morning the schedule for the following week will roll out and I grab what I want according to what my plans are for the week......so if my son has a day off of school I plan either a short night or no work at all. I can change my schedule as I see fit, I can drop a commit within 1/2 hour of the start of that commit and can work uncommitted if I want to. Of course calls go to the committed agents first so it's best to be committed.
Bottom line, I'm not just giving myself a title to have one, I really am a Work At Home Mom :)
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
And replace them with new flags.
This is done to honor and show respect to all the soldiers who have died in service to our country. It teaches the children lessons about respect and honor.
Sadly it also teaches a reality we don't always want our children to learn. Here is Orion and one of his den mates as they happened upon a gravestone of a 14 year old girl. The grave was fresh, new dirt and fresh grass seed was planted. The gravestone had a photo of the girl on it and they were in awe that someone so young could die. At first they reasoned that the family had placed a photo of the girl when she was young on the stone, then they read the dates and did the math. This brought about a sad reality and they simply stood and stared at her stone wondering how one so young could possibly die. They kept saying "She was only 6 years older than we are!" They couldn't walk away from her stone for a full 10 minutes, it was difficult to watch. As I watched him stare at this girls photo it made me ever so thankful that my boy is here with me, thankful for every moment with him as I realized that at any second he could be taken away....and then where would I be??
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Orion and his friend Nic playing DS in between games. Nic was 5th place
Orion just after receiving his trophy
Orion and Coach Mom :)
Orion and his Dad
Friday, May 15, 2009
When I was a little girl, all I wanted to be when I grew up was a mom. If someone asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up, the answer they always received was "I want to be a Mommy, but better than mine" If a child said that today, people would wonder, at least I hope they would. They would wonder why a child would say such a thing, what was so bad about that childs mother that made her want to be better? If only someone had asked that question perhaps my life would have been different! But no one asked why, no one asked what could possibly be so bad about my mommy that I so strongly desired to outdo her, I wish they had, but they didn't. I sometimes wonder how my life would be different if only someone asked for details. I wonder if I would be the person I am today??? But of course it does not do well to dwell in the past so I remember it all only to know what not to be, what not to do, and I live everyday thankful that I did become exactly what I always wanted to be...A mommy that's way better than mine ever was or dreamed of being!
The day I realized I was pregnant was not the day I took the test to see the little pink lines. I simply knew beyond all doubt that I must be pregnant. I was sitting on my couch watching "The Karate Kid" and at the end when the boy gets hurt and stands to fight anyway , dispite the pain, dispite the fact that people wanted him to quit, he stood up against the bullies and won. I bawled my eyes out, cried like a baby....I knew then that I MUST be pregnant and I was right. Little did I know that I would become the boy in the movie, willing to stand up and fight dispite the pain and suffering it might cause me. I didn't know I would be playing through the pain...because that's what we do to bring our little ones into this world. We push through the pain, we do things we never thought we could do for the sake of our children so they can learn to stand up to the bullies and be brave, strong and just.
I always knew my son would be a fighter, someone who had a strong will and desire to do things his own way. This wasn't only because I had read the Chinese Zodiac and found the description of a person born under the Year of The Dragon, but because his 1st 9 months inside my body he wanted things his way even then. He didn't like the smell of wet coffee grinds and made me sick to my stomach everyday at work. I'm sure it was him, because I LOVE my coffee! He liked omelets, specifically Ham, egg and cheese and forced me to eat them on a daily basis (something I'm sure he would love for me to cook him on a daily basis now) At 30 weeks he tried to escape but the doctors and I made sure he stay put and I told him he was grounded for at least 6 weeks, he was not allowed video games or TV, no going out to play for 6 weeks because that's when the doctors said it would be ok. I told him if I had my way he would be there for the full 40 weeks, which meant he was grounded for 10 weeks and since I was the mother that's just the way it was....don't like my rules...tough! SO he decided to stay in for 41 weeks and make me miserable just a little longer so that I would know I was not the one calling the shots, he was! Once he was born, he told everyone off if they didn't hold him right, if they tried to put those little mittens on his fingers that he liked to suck and every single night from 9pm to 10 pm he simply screamed to be heard. You could set a clock by him, he was that predictable. I still don't know how he knew the time, but at the stroke of 9 he turned on and didn't turn off until the stroke of 10!
Today he's my amazing little bowler, he started bowling candlepin because he went to a friends brithday party and liked it, so I signed him up for a league. He enjoyed bowling and comparing scores with his friends, but eventually they quit...they said it was too hard. One of them switched to the "big balls" and started bowling 10 pin instead, even tried getting Orion to join him but Orion said no, he wanted to stick with candlepin. He made new friends who also bowled candlepin and enjoyed bowling with them the last 2 years. Now these 2 are saying they want to quit too, they don't like it, it's too hard and they just want to give it up...Orion still won't quit. He made friends with another boy who bowls in the same league and will join his team instead and continue bowling candlepin. I think it's great he swims against the tide, that he doesn't just follow the crowd but adapts adn finds ways to be himself and the best Orion he can possibly be. Today he is the best boy 10 and under in the state of Massachusetts and the boy who quit a couple years ago and went over to 10 pin, he seems jealous of Orions trophies he'll be getting in a couple weeks and says he wishes he had stuck it out now. Orion did it his way, did what he enjoyed and not what everyone thought he should do and stands on top of the mountain a success because of it...a foundation for the years to come. I pray he never stops swimming against the tide and never does what others think he should do just to fit in with the crowd! He has tought me to stand behind what I believe in and to stand up to the influence of others, to not be swayed by the rushing of the waters but to firmly plant my feet and say "NO I will do this my way because it is right for me!" Even at 8 he's teaching me lessons...I wonder how many more he'll teach me before my life is through.
So with that I will conclude this weeks Flashy Friday. I hope everyone has a fun and memorable weekend!
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Individual Division: 1st Place
Doubles Division: 3rd Place
Teams Division: 1st Place
All Events (total of all 13 games bowled): 1st Place
High Single Game: 1st Place
He'll receive trophies for the 1st place events and a medal for the 3rd place event...so all in all 4 trophies and 1 medal and the knowledge that he is indeed the best boy under the age of 10 in the state of Massachusetts!
We're keeping her in the basement until she can be vet checked, get shots and a flea dip. And in the time it took me to type this out he's decided her name will be "Clawdia" named after the grey/black kitten in the Charlie Bone books who saved Billy Raven from the evil De Grey family. If you have kids who like magic and mystery type books, check out the Charlie Bone series, it's kind of like Harry Potter for kids just beginning to read chapter books. Orion LOVES them!
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Saturday, May 9, 2009
He bowled in teams first thing this morning, he was the top scorer for the team and the team total was enough for 1st place! Immediately following the teams he had doubles and he bowled amazingly...his partner was getting tired and didn't do as well, but between them they bowled enough points for 3rd place! The way it stands for individual Orion is in 1st place and I don't see this other boy taking him. The only boy left to bowl is the boy that was Orions partner in the doubles, he bowled 3 games for teams, 5 games for doubles and now he has to bowl 5 games for individuals. He was getting tired by the end of doubles so it looks really good for Orion! He also has a high individual game of 101 points.
So when it's all said and done he should walk a way with a few different trophies and an amazing sense of accomplishment! I am so unbelievably proud of my little man. We'll know the official scores probably tomorrow or Monday and then we'll be able to officially say that yes he is indeed the best little bowler in all of Massachusetts!
Friday, May 8, 2009
On Flashy Friday I will flashback through my life, my week, wherever I want to flashback to, just turn random memories into words to share...so here I go, my very first Flashy Friday post:
20 years ago, I was a senior in high school trying to figure out what to do with my messed up life. I was a foster kid so I knew my time in the home I was in was drawing to a close and I probably wouldn't have a home to go to very shortly. I was working in an afterschool program making some cash for college and there was this one little boy who loved to call me Mommy. I don't know why he started calling me that, he was 9 years old. His mother lived in a different state and he lived with his father. His father became interested in me and we started dating. Chris was literally twice my age, but at 18 I felt I was pretty cool! My foster parents did not approve, they even went to the extent of going to his house to talk to him and ask him NOT to see me ever again. They felt it was inappropriate for a man twice my age to be dating me....but I was 18 and not their child so I did not listen. They grounded, I went out the window. They yelled, I turned up my music, I was a teenager therefore I knew it all. At one point I got tired of listening to my foster mother so I told her I would break up with him, something I had no intentions of doing. I managed to sneak around successfully for a few weeks until the day I was riding in his truck and she passed us going down the road *oops* He tought me lot that year, andwhen I went off to college I had an older man, experience and dreams of being cool because of it. I was so very wrong! It lasted probably 4 months and then I came to my senses and realized I really should be dating men my own age...he had asked me to drop out of college and marry him, said I didn't need an education because he would be able to take care of me. Lesson learned, I moved on.
In the past few weeks I have become very active on Facebook. It stared when an old college friend sent me a message on classmates.com I used his e-mail address to look him up on facebook and there he was smiling back at me holding a little boy with a second one beside him. He had married a classmate of mine, I thought it was neat to see his new pictures and his kids and reconnect after all these years. I looked at his friends list and there was another name I recognized, a guy I had wanted to date in college but never did, we were just really good friends. The 3 of us would hang out together a lot, watching movies, listening to music, taking road trips...the usual college stuff. I immediately sent a friends request. I've been chatting with them most nights, since I work from home I can actually chat with people while working and not get into trouble. I do my job of course, but between calls we've been catching up and getting to know one another all over again. We're all married, Rob doesn't have kids but Derek and I do. Dereks oldest is just about the same age as my son so we can relate a lot on the area of parenting. It's nice talking with old friends once again!
Speaking of facebook, I have also connected with long lost siblings and their children! On a whim I put my older sisters name into the search engine and it brought her up....in her friends list was nieces and nephews galore! I have spent a lot of time remembering when my nieces and nephew were little and how cute they were. One of my nieces has a son who looks just like her! I got to see pictures of my brothers children....his son looks EXACTLY like him and his oldest daughter is like looking into a mirror for me. It's amazing what the internet can do!
And so here ends the very first Flashy Friday. I am looking forward to many more flashbacks to come!
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Friday, May 1, 2009
As for this weekend...it's a big deal to me. This Sunday is mine and Steve's 13/18 anniversary!
On May 3rd 1991 Steve walked in the door and my world changed. We have not been apart since then. On May 3rd 1996 we finally did what we knew we were destined for, we exchanged vows. This is a siggy tag I made for my discussion board a back in 2005 but it's one of my all time favorite photos from that day
Here we are 18 years after we first met, 13 years after we exchanged vows and became husband and wife. I won't lie, we have had our ups and downs, we've had rough patches that I didn't know if we would make it through, but we did and here we are still together, stronger in our love and holding on to what we knew was meant to be. This past week I have been reflecting on love and marriage and I have come to the understanding that love and marriage isn't the stuff we watched on TV, that isn't reality. Life is a lot harder than they make it look...I only wish life could be fixed in 30 minutes (20 if you take out the commercials) but then again...if all of lifes problems could be fixed that quickly would life be as interesting and worth living as it truly is??? I think not! I tend to think that it's the struggles, the drawn out fights, the battles that we win and lose but come to an understanding in the end of that makes life so much better. Yes we fight, yes we argue and disagree, but if we didn't wouldn't life be pretty boring? It's the fact that we do fight, we do argue and the fact that dispite those we come through it with an "I'm sorry" and an "I Love you " that makes it feel so perfect, so exact, so right for me.
18 years ago I never thought that I would meet someone who could complete me, someone who could turn my world around. I thought that was all just fairy tales. People didn't have happily ever afters, not real people at least. I thought the reason we had fairy tales was so we could all escape the reality that it doesn't happen in real life...I didn't know how very wrong I was. True, in Fairy tales you don't see the couple fighting, you don't see the battles over money and bills and the proper way to discipline the children, you just see the happy mushy stuff. Reality is that the happy mushy stuff happens because you managed to get through those fights, you managed to get over the bills, you managed to come to an agreement or at least agree to disagree. That's where the true bliss happens, that's where the true happiness shines through because in the end you know that now matter what happens you have someone, you have a person who will hold your hand and say they love you even though you have tried so hard not to yet you failed, you messed up, you made a mistake. No matter what you do, there will always be that one person there for you and that my friends is a wonderful feeling! I can't tell you how wonderful it feels to know I have someone and even better that someone is my husband and I love him beyond words!